Checking in

So far, Greg and I were together Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and we're going to hang out tonight, too. We're getting the time in now because the rest of the week is pretty busy--Thursday night we're taking off because he has his daughter, Friday night I really SHOULDN'T do anything because I have to get up early for the walk on Saturday (and the earliest night I've had so far has been midnight), Saturday I'm really hoping that I'll get to hang out with Renee and whoever else wants to join us and Sunday I work at Penney's.

He's just so great to hang out with. We do absolutely nothing and it's the best time I've had in a while. Last night, for example, he made baked spaghetti (which was PHENOMINAL) and we watched the Wings game until he got pissed off, and then we went out for an hour-and-a-half walk around the neighborhood, just talking about EVERYTHING. He calls me during the day just to say hi and to say he's thinking about me. He's a total smartass and cracks a lot of jokes, but every now and then he'll pop out with something so sweet and sincere that I'm literally rendered speechless. He's got this amazing side to him--he's been through a lot (he lost his brother when he was 16, for example) and as he begins to talk more about it, I'm just that much more impressed with the man he's become.

Okay, I'll stop now. Just wanted to check in and share my happiness (before it blows up in my face). The way he talks, it sounds like he's planning on sticking around for a while--he'll mention us going camping this summer, for example, or how his dad will love me (I guess he's a boob man, LOL)...and yet I'm still holding back, because I'm trying not to let myself get TOO excited or hopeful about the future. I've had too many disappointments to really believe that something THIS good could really come along, or that this could actually BE something. I'm trying to "go slow"--we both are, because we've both been hurt--but damn, when you click with someone this strongly so quickly, when you start finishing each other's sentences on the first date and can just sit there in absolute silence and have it feel like the most natural thing in the world...it's hard not to let your mind wander.

I am SO lucky to have someone like him come into my life. I'll tell what you what, if he is my reward for all of the crap I've had to go through to find him, then it was all absolutely worth it.