Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Checking in

So far, Greg and I were together Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and we're going to hang out tonight, too. We're getting the time in now because the rest of the week is pretty busy--Thursday night we're taking off because he has his daughter, Friday night I really SHOULDN'T do anything because I have to get up early for the walk on Saturday (and the earliest night I've had so far has been midnight), Saturday I'm really hoping that I'll get to hang out with Renee and whoever else wants to join us and Sunday I work at Penney's.

He's just so great to hang out with. We do absolutely nothing and it's the best time I've had in a while. Last night, for example, he made baked spaghetti (which was PHENOMINAL) and we watched the Wings game until he got pissed off, and then we went out for an hour-and-a-half walk around the neighborhood, just talking about EVERYTHING. He calls me during the day just to say hi and to say he's thinking about me. He's a total smartass and cracks a lot of jokes, but every now and then he'll pop out with something so sweet and sincere that I'm literally rendered speechless. He's got this amazing side to him--he's been through a lot (he lost his brother when he was 16, for example) and as he begins to talk more about it, I'm just that much more impressed with the man he's become.

Okay, I'll stop now. Just wanted to check in and share my happiness (before it blows up in my face). The way he talks, it sounds like he's planning on sticking around for a while--he'll mention us going camping this summer, for example, or how his dad will love me (I guess he's a boob man, LOL)...and yet I'm still holding back, because I'm trying not to let myself get TOO excited or hopeful about the future. I've had too many disappointments to really believe that something THIS good could really come along, or that this could actually BE something. I'm trying to "go slow"--we both are, because we've both been hurt--but damn, when you click with someone this strongly so quickly, when you start finishing each other's sentences on the first date and can just sit there in absolute silence and have it feel like the most natural thing in the world...it's hard not to let your mind wander.

I am SO lucky to have someone like him come into my life. I'll tell what you what, if he is my reward for all of the crap I've had to go through to find him, then it was all absolutely worth it.

9 comments:

J said...

damn if there is a reward for all the "crap" we went thru.. then hell.. mine must be right around the corner.. ;-)

J said...

P.S. glad to hear things are going well for you.. and I hope it does work out for ya.. But.. no matter what.. I will NEVER and I mean NEVER forget the 12 hour first date date.. ;-)

Jen said...

Awwwwwwwwwwww....I got a little misty eyed. Thanks, Jeff.

And yeah, that first date WAS pretty damn good.

LocuTus of Borg said...

Jen ... fuck all the bullshit about waiting, taking things slow, blah blah blah. Just reading about you and him sounds like you just need to let things happen on their own - it will anyway. Shit even your posts "excude" your happiness which is pretty cute :)!

Jen said...

Yeah....happy for now. Again, don't want to get TOO excited or happy cuz it's early on. But so far, so good. He left me a message this morning to say "You're thinking about me right now, I bet", but that's just his dysfunctional little way of letting me know that HE was thinking about ME.

Anna said...

Aw! I'm so glad you've found someone nice and that you're enjoying each other :)

Renee said...

Awww, Jefff... that might be the nicest thing I've ever heard you say :-) I hope your reward is around the corner, too.

And I have the biggest,gayest smile right now for you guys... as mentioned in the previous post comment thingie(I'm not drunk), you guys are adorable. He really is a great guy. I need to stop typing cuz it's taking me like an hour to get this out without any typos. I probably shouldn't have driven home. :-)

J said...

Well reallly that was prolly one of the best dates I ever went on.. things just went sooo damn well.. its like we knew each other for like 10 years.. anywho.. umm yeah.. put the bottle down renee.. :-D

Renee said...

You mean yours and Jen's first date? I'm confused...

LOL. I really didn't feel drunk when I left or while driving home (isn't that always the case?). And even once I GOT home. But I couldn't type for the life of me.