Sunday, July 31, 2005

Along those same lines...

I am terrified that something will happen to Thomas. He starts convoy duty the second week of August. He'll be the damn GUNNER.

I know some of you may think that I'm crazy (wait, that part goes without saying) for getting so involved with Thomas, even though we haven't met yet. But please know this: Thomas and I grow closer every day, and even if things don't work out romantically (although I hope they do), he means the world to me. I realized, not that long ago, that I would give my life in a HEARTBEAT if it would guarantee that Thomas would come home safely.

We received some good news recently: he MIGHT be home by Thanksgiving, a full month earlier than we anticipated. Even so, that's 4 long months away. PLEASE, everyone, I beg you to keep Thomas in your thoughts and prayers.

18 comments:

Jen said...

There a number of soldiers that I've grown tight with--SA has been losing a couple of our heroes a month (roughly) and yes, I'm scared for ALL of "my boys." My heart breaks for the other Angels who have lost one of their men or women.

I wish that I was a kid again (well, 6th grade or so), like I was in Desert Storm. I didn't really know what was going on back then. All I remember about that time is the hat Renee's dad would wear: "Kickin' Ass in Desert Storm." I remember that VIVIDLY. We were just going over and--well, we were doing SOMETHING, dammit. I didn't know what, exactly, but whatever it was, we were kicking ass at it.

This war, of course, hits so much closer to home. I can tell you that I never really thought about casualties and fallen heroes when I signed up for SA. I signed up for supporting our troops. Now, though, I have to tell you, with every letter I send....yes, it crosses my mind. So far, I have been very lucky. Everyone I've written to, as far as we know, is alive and well. I just hope that that holds up.

Oops, guess this should have been a whole different post.

Jen said...

And I feel horrible for even THINKING of anything bad happening to Thomas--but I can't help it.

Fred said...

We'll be thinking about him. Keep us posted!

Renee said...

Thomas is in my daily thoughts, along with all the other brave men and women who are fighting for us.

I, too, wish I was younger and didn't realize what was going on... it's so HEARTBREAKING, and they're so YOUNG! You've got me bawling again.

LOL. I do not remember that hat. It's so funny that you do.

You can't feel bad for thinking of bad stuff... I think it's human nature. And you're hoping bad things DON'T happen to him, so it's okay. You can't wear blinders and tell yourself he'll be completely safe and he'll come home without even a bruise... he'll be doing a very dangerous job, and you're just doing what any normal person does. Heh. I was trying to make you feel better, but somehow I think I may have made it worse, confirming your fears or something. Sorry. Just know that he is in my thoughts, even more so when he starts convoy. I have a pit in my stomach; I can't imagine what YOURS feels like right now.

keesh said...

I will personally be praying for Thomas because I know that GOD above is in control and he will be watching over him...

Jen said...

Kish, thank you.

But here's my morbid thought of the day. God is watching over all of our men and women, right? And some of htem don't make it home. That's what scares me. All heroes over there (well, most) have SOMEONE back home who is praying for their return. Some prayers go unanswered. That's what scares me the most.

SparkyDiva said...

He can't answer them all, my dear jen. but i know that we all know that. He has His own agenda, and unfortunately, He doesn't consult us first.

all of our angels are in my prayers. *raising my glass* here's to getting them all home safely...
~b

keesh said...

Jen - just because sometimes there is a prayer we want to come true, our God has something else in mind. Those wonderful soldiars, by the grace of God, will get eternity in paradise, when he chooses, not when we choose. You are asking all of us to pray for these men and woman, yet you are doubting God's decisions. God never promised that what we want would be what is, but that he will hold us up when times got tough and that we will get to be with him, if we so choose, in paradise when the time is right. I do Pray that not another soldiar will die, I pray for their safety and I pray for their blessing us with their honor. Words aren't enough. Pray Jen, Pray to God, you will feel the connection if you are sincere in your heart.

keesh said...

Sorry to sound so preachy, but I think we all do that. we pray for something, yet that something may not come and we all get dissapointed and question God. So I just wanted to say that it just isn't up to us and i hope when I doubt, cause I will, you will be there to remind me that it isn't up to me but that God will get me through it..whatever it may be. I think Gods works are shining through you, you are such a blessing to these soldiars and I think God has blessed you by bringing Thomas into your life. You remind me often, not to take for granted the man or woman I see at the store in uniform, you remind me that these men and woman give up so much, just for our freedom and I think that is a gift God has given you, to remind us what they are doing for us. God Bless you and everyone reading this.

Jen said...

Awww that made me cry. Thanks, Kish. (Of course I've been crying all day; one of my sailors came home today. I couldn't be there to meet the ship, but I got some VA areas to have a sign and meet him and stuff. He said it was the first time, EVER, that someone has been there for HIM--he doesnt really have any family left. So he's sent me several emails telling me how great it was to have someone waiting for him and to thank me--to thank ME, can you believe it? And the Angels who were there have all told me how great and wonderful and charming he was and how crazy they are about him.

Renee said...

It made me cry, too, and you all know my views on religion stuff. Nicely put, Kish!

Anna said...

I think you're right to worry about Thomas. The thing that gets me is that there are (how many?) at least thousands of people over there to be worried over and prayed for by their loved ones. Some of them, thousands of them, don't make it home. This is sad but it is the reality. This is why we've got to do everything we can to make it all stop.

Also, I think God answers all prayers. God isn't a genie to do whatever we want. God knows what's best for us all and we need to trust God. So I don't think it's about God not answering, but about God answering sometimes in ways we don't yet understand. But I think God's there for us always with every prayer.

Anna said...

Sorry to be such a downer so early on Monday morning.
I am praying for him & the others over there.
It's a pretty heavy subject for so early Monday morning.

LocuTus of Borg said...

Godspeed Thomas!

Jamie Dawn said...

Hopefully time will go by quickly and he will return home safe and sound. I trust he will.

Jen said...

He starts convoys tonight (our tonight, his tomorrow morning). Pray extra hard! (He'll be in the last Humvee tho, which is a bit safer than the lead one, but still. He's the damn gunner, ie, the guy with his head sticking out of the top.)

Renee said...

Ugh, it just gives me chills to think about.

Anonymous said...

Shut up, you better not give your life for his. Cuz I would give mine for yours.