Good night nurse
I had an appointment with my BP doc yesterday. Two things were slightly bothering me: a) the fact that my lithium was making me get up and pee every 2 hours during the night, EVERY night, since I started it in July (due to the water retention. That water retention is also the reason for this blasted 10-15 lb weight gain) and b) for the last 3 nights or so specifically, I had been sleeping very little--a total of a couple hours, period, each night. She thought that my lack of sleep plus the disruption to my schedule (Spring Break) could be putting me into a slight "up" episode. Nothing major yet, she said, but we need to get you sleeping again--for a variety of reasons, obviously. So she prescriped me a special (as I found out today whilst doing research) BP-related sleeping pill, designed to help with the manic phases.
"But Jen," she warned me as I was leaving. "Start with half a pill, especially on a school night. They're pretty strong."
P'shaw. I'm my mother's daughter, byyaaatch. I can handle a little sleeping pill.
So last night, I stood in the kitchen and took my first Seroquel. Then I started walking towards my room.
As far as I can tell, I fell asleep somewhere near the dryer. Pure momentum propelled the last 20 feet to my room.
This was 9 pm. At 6:30 this morning, my alarm went off--and I knew I was in trouble. It was like swimming underwater. I was moving in slow motion. I tried to "shake it off" so I could get up and get ready but it just wasn't happening. I knew I had to call in--but first I had to literally practice stringing together a couple of comprehensive sentences. It's like I suddenly went stupid, like my brain had totally stopped working. After about 15 minutes, I finally called in and, despite all my practice, ended up muttering something akin to "Me no work today." Then I went back to bed. It's now 2:45.
On the plus side, I slept straight through the night for the first time in YEARS. It was glorious. I now feel pretty damn rested.
But next time, I'm only taking half (unless it's the weekend).